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What
a glorious moment for our Earth to know we are all one. What a powerful
moment this is for me to be speaking from the United States of America
about beauty, harmony, and grace. My heart overflows with the interconnectedness
of my family, my community, my nation, and my world. There is sanctity
in this moment. There is grace as we awaken. There is strength as
we remember. There is hope as we create anew.
How is it that harmony co-exists with terrorism,
violence, and hatred? How can the shadow be so influential that it
humbles us by the ingenuity of a few? How can justice prevail when
we continue to inhabit a world of fear and yet desiring a world of
love? These are the questions that have come to me since September
11, 2001. Martin Luther King said: "Through violence you may
murder a murderer, but you can’t murder murder…Darkness
cannot put out darkness. Only light can do that." From my viewpoint
we must change so that peace will prevail on Earth. Most of us want
love, harmony, and beauty, which I see as our collective definition
of peace. Many of us know the path to create peace. Only light can
do it.
My own story of beauty is profound in its
themes, metaphors, and symbols, reflected in the drama of my life.
It is both my guide and my companion as I walk my journey of wholeness.
I am Sally Aderton, healer and spiritual teacher, woman and warrior
of love, and creator of a new dream of the Earth. I am certain that
my story is both unique and not. I hope that by sharing my story you
will be supported in the creation of your dream of the Earth. Now
we have been called to serve in her creation for what affects one,
affects the whole. The lives that seemed to be abruptly ended on September
11th will not be lost in vain. These souls dramatically exited for
our wholeness. Through their willingness, hopefully, they will inspire
the awakening of many more people to peace.
Beauty for me is the product of balance.
The word "heal" I define as the "process of coming
into balance." Therefore, not only when I am healed I experience
beauty but also it is in the action of healing. In this understanding,
beauty is not just the reward, it is the way. I am serving all if
I choose to vibrate from my beauty. It is the radiance of love that
is the essence of my soul, my connection to the Divine, and the light
that is indwelling. However, I do not get to this awareness by negating
my negative or murdering the murder. I am whole when I embrace the
negative and love it. I have learned that to be broke is to be whole.
There is perfect imperfection and that only by acknowledging all-that-is
can I be truly free.
For those readers who do not know me, I have
been practicing as a Healer and Non-denominational Spiritual Teacher
for 16 years since I was 24 years old. My tools, techniques, and style
of healing are not as important as my philosophic perspective. In
other words the ‘how’ is not as important as the ‘why’
of my work. I listen with my heart to help myself and others help
our selves. We are all holy and deserve to live the creativity, visions,
and dreams that each of us has come into life to fulfill. My philosophy
has always been that as we heal ourselves we heal the world.
There is anonymous wisdom message in my country,
which says: "Where your deepest wound lives is also where your
greatest gift lives." I was diagnosed in 1998 with a benign tumor
on the nerve to my ear. My wounds from the brain surgery that saved
my life were 1) to my confidence, 2) to the loss of function to half
of my face, and 3) to the hearing in one of my ears. As I have healed
I feel even more courage, even more beauty, and even more ability
to deeply listen to others. These events are not coincidental but
they are directly symbolic of my empowerment as a being awake with
God. We are all faced with lessons to learn about love, though the
story lines may be different, the outcomes are usually the same. Love
is the beginning. Love is the end. Love is also what lies in between.
As a child I experience violence in the form
of sexual abuse by adult males whom I loved and depended on for survival.
The words used during these experiences were as damaging as the physical
acts. I was told: "You are so beautiful Sally!" In my innocent
mind I decided that it was not a good thing to be beautiful so I purposefully
hid my light for many years. The Buddha has said that, "When
one is truly ready for something, it puts in its appearance."
My memories of my abuse began to surface as I began to develop my
healing skills. I had already years before committed myself to my
spiritual path, the memories came as I learned that I could assist
others in their spiritual journeys as well. As I become more aware
of the light of Spirit in me, I became more beautiful to others and
to myself.
It is not surprising that my tumor symptoms
became more apparent as I became more and more radiant. My beauty
grew as I owned the pain of my experience, forgave the players in
my story, forgave myself, and found more balance in all levels of
my experience. The diagnosis and surgery coincided with a rejection
from a man. As I was wounded in my beauty by the rejection of what
I thought was love, the damage to my physical form also happened.
During the years (1988-91) that I was recovering
my abuse memories, the somatic experience was releasing sorrow, anger,
and shame often that my body had stored in the back right side of
my head. The tumor located in the same area, of course, was the physical
storage unit that my body had produced to contain those feelings and
memories. When I was able to deal with them as an adult instead of
as a child, when I was ready, they appeared. When I no longer needed
the storage unit, the tumor let me know that it existed. Not surprisingly,
with the rejection of another man in 1998, a situation that could
be viewed from a victim/perpetrator model like childhood sexual abuse,
the need to end this victim belief system was the basis of my healing.
It was so necessary in the evolution of my consciousness that I wake
up to this message, I created brain surgery to "get it!"
The nerve function to motorize the muscles
to the right side of my face was profound. The nerve actually died.
My face was totally asymmetrical. The right side was paralyzed. I
was told by a neurosurgeon at Stanford Hospital, one of my country’s
finest medical research facilities that "it will never function
again". This experience was the voice of God telling me I had
to get even more committed to my wellness, my healing, and my self-love.
I knew that the rejection from the man and the metaphor of "losing
face", which is shame, were connected. I worked diligently to
heal on all levels: psychological-to heal the shame, physical-by daily
acupuncture and exercise, emotional-by letting my feelings be whatever
they were and being creative, mental-by studying for a Master’s
Degree, spiritual-by prayer and meditation, and the most important
was learning to see my love again. I could see God’s love in
others; I was having a difficult time seeing it in me. As all of the
paths of healing have the same destination, more self-love, I slowly
began to see what my friends and family had always seen. The love
that I am radiated through what I was defining now as a broken body.
There is a perfect example in the rainbow-maker
crystals that I love to give to people as I travel. These prisms only
work because they break the white light by refraction in order for
us to see the colors red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, and
violet. White light is really made of diverse vibrations which by
the act of breaking the light; we are able to enjoy rich independent
hues as they appear in the rainbow. What a great lesson as we work
to bring the Rainbow tribe of conscious beings together in one world.
The refraction in the collective is a part of helping us see diversity
is what makes beauty.
Though I had been on a path of spiritual
consciousness since I was 14, somewhere inside I still bought the
idea that I was alone. Through recovery from the subsequent damage
to my hearing, my face, my balance, my self esteem, my financial stability,
my relationships with clients and friends, and my perception of the
world, I now know that I am never alone. This is the gift that I hope
to continue to share with others as we create this world with love
embracing all-that-is. My face now reflects a miracle. I can now smile,
blink, and wrinkles have returned. My face is not the same as before
the brain surgery. I am not the same either nor would I want to be.
The metaphors and the story will continue from here. I know it is
about my journey on the path and the destination is, and always will
be for me the same as the way, love.
Harmony is the presence of consonance and
dissonance. The ability to have vibrations that are positive and negative
co-existing to create sound that is full, rich, and satisfying. For
us to live in an abundant world we must learn to perceive the negative
as a call to heal. It is the shadow that alerts our attention to where
light is needed. If we choose to move toward the negative instead
of away from it we will have the greatest power possible. Embracing
instead of rejecting each other, not to make us all the same, but
by honoring our diversity, we will live in harmony.
For me the terrorism that the world experienced
was not just toward the United States on September 11th. This was
a call to heal for all people o all nations. Grace can enter in to
mend this global grief if we can open are hearts to receive. The magnetic
energy that is the negative energy in the universe is the energy of
the divine feminine. It is the feminine that receives as the masculine
gives. As we all look inside to heal our inner terrorists, our inner
hijackers, and our inner struggle with dominion, the world will come
to a new balance. I am not condoning the acts. I am not defending
the will of these men. I am certain that this acting out of such vengeance
is a warning for us, who claim to be of light, to shine even more
bright.
The unity of us with God, us with each other,
and us with our enemies, mends the illusion that we are in this life
alone. I believe that by walking the beauty path, by showing as much
of my radiance, love, and light possible, I become a part of the solution
to the problems instead of being a contribution. Let us go on together
for I have also found the walk into the Great Mystery to be a lot
more fun when there are others around to lighten the load, share responsibility,
and see when I cannot. I will affirm again: beauty is not just a reward,
it is the way for us all!
Published
in
Lichtwelle,
Switzerland (German
Magazine)
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Ownership
Empathy
Release
Understanding
Change
The key to peace in our bodies, emotions,
minds, and souls is the ability to forgive. The definition of forgiveness
is to "give over, let go." This is the process of surrender.
All of us as human beings learn that by holding on we can control
our lives, the lives of others, and our creations. The opposite is
really truth. It is by letting go that we move into faith. Faith allows
us to end our separateness and merge with something greater than ourselves.
It is by the ability to touch the eternal we can then know peace.
Peace abides in the state of balance, grace, and harmony that is love.
Basis of all healing is ending separation. To heal means to bring
into balance.
If we do not claim our issues and concerns
we cannot let them go. Definition gives us the power to develop a
relationship to the situations that cause pain. The more specific
we can be in the definition of a situation, the more clear the healing.
If we do not own it, we do not have the control to give it away.
In order to let do of blame, guilt, regret,
anger, or fear we must know the perspective that created separation
from ourselves and what ever we are forgiving. This is true from individuals,
aspects of ourselves, groups, and whomever we project the responsibility
of moving us out of our personal power and peace. We must see from
their eyes the situation to bridge the separation. This ends the illusion
of separation and compassion occurs.
Letting go, forgiving, releasing not only
the belief but also the product of conflict, emotion, is necessary
to re-pattern our behavior. Energy from our spirits, which manifests
in form through emotions, creates the response toward experience.
The essential nature of energy is movement, thus, e-motion. Forgiveness
is only possible when the energy is released and transformed.
We are not victims to any experience in the
greater truth. Keeping ourselves and others accountable to our actions
keeps truth in the process of being able to let go of what inhibits
us from being free. Learning and service are the basis for the human
condition. Every situation can be reduced to how it helped us learn
about love and how it served the greater mysterious Universe. Wisdom
comes from being able to understand that everything serves us in some
way. Finding out how it serves makes it easier, again, to let go.
The final step in forgiveness is change. We
must change our energy, our attitude, our understanding, our behavior
and move on. In the eternal truth our spirits are energy which is
constantly seeking freedom. Forgiveness allows us to be free. The
balance of movement and stillness, therefore healing, is possible
when we change. The change must happen physically, emotionally, mentally,
and spiritually to be complete. Moving in the circle of dark to light,
chaos to control, pain to love is the circle of life. This is the
change of every moment of our living experience. Change and love are
the only constant states in the Universe...
Forgiveness
brings us into the eternal truth where there is peace for our freedom
seeking spirits. In each moment we must surrender the past for the
future. By forgiving ourselves and those whom we hold accountable
for our pain we can move into infinite possibility. Joy abides in
this place of freedom. As the saying goes:
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I am the stars that shine in the night
I am the moon that re-cycles the sun's light
I am the wound the wonder the tears and the pain
I am the healing the awe the reward and the rain
I am the prose and the word the tree and the book
I am the breath that brings them to song
I am the love that I have had all along
I am the dream and the movie and the play
I am the courage to face each new day
I am the will and the want and the desire
I am the passion that fuels all fire
I am the sea and it is the sum of me
I am the you and the promise of we
I am the love that is that can that be
I am the depths and the heights and the center
I am the moment that connects forever
I am the peace and the war and the bridge and the river
I am the receiver and I am the giver
I am stillness and calm and darkness and the advent of ideas
I am the rainbow the sparkle the clouds and the sun
I am your heart and mine that beats as one
I am the who the what the why the how and the when
I am the beginning the middle and the end
October 11, 1999
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God
Has Spoken to the Land
Promise
has spoken to the land
call
for joy and I command
that ye shall have and have again
the son of God
through the hearts of men.
Plenty
has spoken to the land
call forth gifts and I command
that ye shall have and have again
the wealth of kings
through the hands of men.
Beauty has spoken to the land
call forth grace and I command
that ye shall have and have again
the love of queens
through the eyes of men.
Spring
has spoken to the land
call forth birth and I command
that ye shall have and have again
life eternal
through the body of men.
Summer
has spoken to the land
call forth growth and I command
that ye shall have and have again
strength and valor won
through the intention of men.
Autumn
has spoken to the land
call forth harvest and I command
that ye shall have and have again
sustenance and splendor valued
through the minds of men.
Winter
has spoken to the land
call forth death and I command
that ye shall have and have again
rest from the woes
for the spirit of men.
God
has spoken to the land
call forth I and I command
that ye shall have and have again
miracles and magic
through the presence of men.
July 13, 1991
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Within
each of us we find the essence of wisdom which speaks through metaphor,
story, and awareness. The journey of life is often measured by the
quality and quantity of this wisdom. In this collection of poems written
over a 20 year period of my life, I want to share with you my wisdom,
documentation of my own process, by poetry. Many of us, sensitive
to the evolution of thought, relationships, love, self discovery,
and self actualization, use writing to reflect back to us the mirror
of our personal insight. May you find your face in the mirror of my
words reminding you of what you already know. Keep in mind the unity
of human consciousness, the blessings of spirit, and the power of
our feelings which have no words. Poetry takes me immediately to the
moment of feeling where I believe transformation lives. Through writing
words of prose I change my vision to reflect the knowledge not the
pain of my experience and the memory of the moment has been preserved.
March 1994
Our
conversation
stirred up some
dust
that the winds
of change
carried off
forever
and we were cleansed
and began
again....
You
are like
pizza
I love pizza
yet,
it gives me heartburn!
Little
mementos of love and affection,
given to others for special attention.
Ribbons and flowers from many a past escapade,
set waiting to be remembered as they slowly wilt and fade.
Oh, those little momentous have a special place in my heart,
because they've been a symbol of your love,
right from the start.
Somewhere
near tomorrow,
tucked under yesterday,
hidden behind my sorrow,
lies the glory of today.
I
am a bird
trapped in a cage too small
I can not even spread
my wings
to their fullest extent
I am confined
and it weighs heavy
on my mind.
Oh, to soar
above,
to become a part of the sky
in all its brilliance
white clouds,
bright sunshine, and
vast blueness
If I could only
ride upon the
free spirited wind....
But I am only a bird
trapped in a cage too small
with no one to open the door.
We
have the power
to communicate
in so many beautiful ways.
It is possible to
say just how you feel
without ever uttering a sound.
If people could only recognize this language
and not fear it
Maybe, then
it would be easier
to understand
and be understood.
dimensions
abstractions
expansions
of the mind
release us
and show us
all the knowledge
you can find
foretold before
repeated again and again
all that we know
comes from within.
Illusion
Confusion
Rational
Conclusion
Solution...
Simplify,
and you will find
all the entrances
to your mind.
Family
ties
that bind the heart
are genetically there
from your start.
But the love
that you received
came from
those who believe.
That we are all one
Mother, daughter
Father, son
We are a family.
he
will not hear me
his eyes will be closed to see
thought patterns unbroken
logic; not me
my mind will wander
please
someone touch me
Impression
pushing, pushing
from the inside out
what is worse, nothing better?
screaming "I want to get out!"
suppression, depression, repression
-impression-
read the reverse
the non-truth
on my face
Solitude
alone,
a part of me
is cast aside
looking for a home
I've found it
here
between the lines
for once, they're not so bare.
into
the mirror
gaze did she
who appeared before her eyes?
and the reflection did reply
'tis me!
'tis me!
can't you see?
the vision blurred
with a veil of tears
Poetry comes and goes
in my life like
ANGER
Event, Emotion, Reaction
DENIAL
(repeat)
(repeat again)
EXPLOSION
Once again Poetry is
PRESENT
Wellspring
of feelings
tears ready to flow
this is my path
this is what I know
I am love
I am the light
I will let it go.
A
diamond
cast at my feet
your death ruling my dreams
alone I am found lost
grief comes again
the wave of trust
gone in an instant
into the void I go
to discover the
truth
purity I seek
simplicity I desire
out in a wave
rolls
emotion
the wave of trust
love born
of loss
a diamond
pure radiant light
at my feet.
We
were
I
before
you
became
me
where does the circle
begin
end
with us....
She
starts out strong
a contender, a winner
with a warrior's resolve
to master the enemy;
overpowering the weak
breaking other's wills
controlling the destiny of
right over wrong.
Broken and shattered
a survivor
she finishes.
No one could stop her
as the battle raged
they could not hear her
as her courage turned to shame
right or wrong
who could she blame
but the enemy within.
She stops where she is.
Out of the darkness
fed by the light
spinning and twirling
confusion
Delight in the dream
risking the flight
surrender the dawn
the magic
the fight
Held by the hand
that faces the sun
out of the darkness
the day has
begun
Confusion
born in the dream
the war has
been won
surrender
the dawn
the magic
the light.
heartfire
night
daydreams score
bring home the song
hear it sung to the stars
dancing off moonbeams
held in the moment
of love
when you touch
that place
when you play the song
safety and softly
I become...
undone
surrounded in love
sworn to the end
surprised I believe
held in the moment
of love
ecstasy breathes
life to the fire
into the night
passion, desire
light of our hearts
held in the moment
of love
held in the moment of love.
he holds me up at 35,000 feet
he holds me when I cross the street
in the eye of the storm
in a moment of bliss
in the smile of a child
when I surrender a kiss
he holds my light
he holds my hand
he will never leave me
even if I forget
he will hold me forever
in darkness and tears
in the deepest of fears
when death is embraced
he is where we meet
always, he is
Healer
of self
divined, right, just
Healer for peace
assured, pure, free
Healer by name
has none
It is all that is.
Raging in blue
clamped in the throat
glands squeezed together
unable to breathe
the fire below
the mind to a plan
ne'er they meet
revenge so sweet
raging in blue
such a sorrowful you
stuck by your shame
the truth goes unheard
It
is right for me
to have inside
that very special
place to hide
Dreams are things
made of glass
Life is but a
story
The place I go
the secret I hold
sad sails, darkness aches
longing for the light
Dreams are things
made of glass
Life is but a
story!
In the beginning
it was fine
you go your way
I'll go mine
Later then
with the beginning
came an end
You go first
I'll go last
Later still
with God's will
I went first
and you went last
When we knew
that we were through
with wondering why
and questioning the sky
Together we shared
together we cried
surrendering our will
answering the sky
Who came first
and who went last
didn't matter anymore
we set it free
like the past
Time was our friend
from beginning to end.
Wrapped
around
the smallness of me
powerful strong
arms of you
Safety
love's net
for my pain
Dance with me for a while
let us leave our
silent journeys
behind
Moving to new ways
inside
reflected in our actions
outside
Safety
shown in your eyes as they smile
warm into mine
You are strong outside
vulnerable in
I am vulnerable outside
strong in
Safety
love's net
Let the balancing act
begin...
In these times
of heartbreak lines
your voice to my tears
singing raindrops
through the cloud
of my
feelings
ah, the sensations
of love lost
When becomes later
as my shared dream
of together
is seen to be
separate
and the same
of my feelings
ah, the sensations
of knowing truth
bring back romance
lace and flowered
promises
ah, the sensations
of love found
again
in
time.
Bright
lights in your smile
love from your eyes
bringing kindness to my tears
joy to my soul
when we know our dream
when our truth creates the story
when your heart beats as mine
when I surrender to you my God
Bright lights in my smile
love from my eyes
bringing kindness to your tears
joy to your soul
I love you now
in this dream
when becomes
now.
There are doorways out
It is possible to be free
I have heard the soul sing
I walk for me now
It has been a toll laden road
that was always deep inside
My tears become the threshold
Your arms opening to my smile
But it is me that I embrace
Reflected in your eyes
Divined we are one
The emancipation
has begun.
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